A Player

I finally realised Mr . Attractive isn’t that attractive after all. Yeah he is attractive but when I knew he’s some sort of a player, I see him otherwise. I’m glad I did not take the relationship into the next level although I almost play with fire. And I’m happy I have my sweetheart by my side. I feel guilty sometimes for going out with Mr Attractive but it’s gonna be my secret for a very long, long time… A secret which only I know.

Give and take

It’s been ages since I last blogged. Things have been cooling down between Mr. Attractive and I. Yes. I made mistakes in the past but it’s time to move on. My current relationship with my boyfriend is getting better and I do realise relationship needs work such as give and take and patience. Well, things do remind me of Mr Attractive occasionally but as far as possible, I try not too.

Like I said, my boyfriend and I are getting stronger despite some minor issues but I do believe we’ll stay together forever.

Am I Playing With Fire?

I think I’m playing with fire…. Ever since that day, things are changing… I do ask if i really feel anything… or do i really attracted to him? Well, currently, my relationship with my bf is getting better and we understand more of each other now…

The thing is i do not want anything to ruin the friendship between mr attractive and i…

maybe i shouldnt move too fast…i made mistakes

Is it just a fling?

Someone sweet came into my life not long ago. It’s quite confusing as I’ve someone special already but I am attracted to him. I do wonder if it would be a fling or something more. Things happen and sometimes, it just beyond my control. What should i do….?

Am I…

really attracted to him…? Sometimes, I wish he didn’t tell me that he’s attracted to me….

Trust

currently, i think i having some sort of trust issues towards him. i tend to imagine and think lots of unwnated and unneccessary stuffs. i know i can trust him but sometimes the feeling of paranoia overtakes me.

i guess i just need to be sensible and after all, without trust, relationship fails.

God, pls give me a good relationship between me and my hun. and take away all my worries. amen

My Wish

I WANT TO HAVE A GREAT TIME WITH HIM AND EVERYTHING THAT I WANT GOES SMOOTHLY.

PLEASE GET HIM VERY GOOD AND LOVELY MOOD WITH ME

Maybe he’s too tired

I called him and he told me he’s too tired. I understand that but in the midst of our conversation he said that he doesn’t care about me and us. I know he was just joking but sometimes i must say i can’t take it. I really don know what to think sometimes. and  by the way, our vacation is coming soon and i really wanna have a fun time with him.

Dear God, I pray that our relationship is getting better each day. And i want it to be great. Amen.

Mind of suspicion

I know I shouldn’t but sometimes insecurities fill me. Just checked his whereabouts, and he wasn’t home. i know I’m clingy and feel things that i shouldnt feel. and yesterday when i came out from the bathroom, he was talking to someone on his phone and um… i dun know… i just dun trust him sometimes especially when he’s with the girls. I know he would not cheat on me but i guess I think too much.

Things are changing?

He doesn’t really care about me anymore. Called him just now and he sounded pissed off. He told me he was busy. Well, he didn’t need to be that rude right. He bought a new phone and couldn’t he call me and let me know… Just a short call? Sigh, i just don’t know what to say. And one more thingg, he cancelled our meeting tomorrow. I was upset that way he treated me. And by the way, I had a bad dream about us the other night. It was a break up and i hope it wouldn’t come true!

IM SICK AND TIRED OF HIM SOMETIMES. I AINT SURE IF I COULD CONTINUE GOING AHEAD WITH HIM.